Sometimes it's tiring.

This morning, after cleaning out, feeding and watering our chickens and Quail in the pouring rain (poor birds), I came back in for a coffee and sitting beside Cindi, I asked her how she was. She looked at me and quietly said, "I'm tired of being sick." So hard to hear those words and know that although we are half way there, we still have 6 1/2 weeks to go and 4 more treatments. And from the look in her eyes, I can see that this is hard! Yes, it is tiring for my beautiful wife to manage simple things like food when she is nauseous or getting through the day spending time reading or watching a favorite show when just months before she had a demanding job and schedule and a vibrant schedule. It's tiring wondering what people think of you when you have no hair and look "different". It all takes a toll. Ever feel this way? Ever feel like you're not in control of things and it drains you of all your energy and joy? Ever try to wish away the trials that you're in? I do. We all do. Problem is that they never seem to magically disappear when you want them to. But...they do pass.

However, in the midst of the "tiredness" there are moments of wonderful comfort! Silly friends drop by with silly gifts and words of comfort and stories of "normal", trying on head scarves together and having a good chuckle. Friends deliver lasagnas with about an inch of cheese on the top that tastes like a little bit of heaven and is simply wonderful. People reach out and with their actions and words say - "Hang in there. We love you. You can do this." And we can do this. Each of us is wired up to do whatever it is we are doing. Perhaps we could let go of some of the fringe busy things and make life a little more simple. But we can bite the bullet and rely on each other and the wonderful support of "community" - those people in our lives who hold our hands. So today we will put our heads down and move forward. We ask each other to pray for the things we need, hoping in that support for answers from a loving God. We look forward to the "good moments" and squeeze every bit of goodness out of them like a warm bath with Egyptian jasmine salts to make her feel better - restored - renewed.

Thank you for your continued prayers for my most beautiful wife. She will need them more now than ever as she begins this journey to the end of treatment...the end of tiredness...the end of being sick. Know that we appreciate and love each of you for the sacrifices you have made of your time, your food and your prayers. They are appreciated more than you can imagine. We will continue to hold Jesus' hand in this and let Him guide the way. We will tell Him daily about the beautiful friends and family we have and how they are so appreciated. We will see this through to the end and (in tiredness) we will celebrate the good that has touched us on this journey. Peace and grace to each of you as you each walk your own paths... Oh...and could someone pray for this rain to go away?